creed

Hm. We just got our Personal Creed assignment, even though Creger's class got it about two months ago...Tsuji is crazy, she wanted us to turn in all of Step I before Spring Break. I didn't want to do that, because it takes time to analyze yourself, and I want to do a good job on this. I don't want to just bullshit everything I want to say when I have the opportunity to really write my fucking autobiography.

I read over some of the instructions a few times, but I don't think I ever really read any of it. I still don't know what I'm doing.

Man. Why are breaks always so jam-packed? They're supposed to be breaks...ha, we need to do our Kodomo no Omocha fest...we pushed it back from when? The summer? Then Thx Break, then Winter...

Anyway...Step I is now due after Spring Break, which means I won't be sprouting white hairs just yet...I'm packed for every weekend from until break with badminton and JCA practice...speaking of JCA...

::tumbles down with Linda::

bleeeeeeeeeh. Okay. It's okay. We can do it.

Anyhowww..I've had a few requests lately to hear my current love life status, and I failed to respond because I didn't--still don't--know the answer. A part of me has said that I don't like him as much as I used to, but it's occurred me that that may not necessarily be true--it is different, but the dominant part of me believes that it is only because I've become resigned to the fact that I can't get over it. I like Ryan, and I accept that.

For a bit, I wanted to publicly post, "Congratulate me, seven months later and I'm finally over Ryan!" But I didn't want to jinx myself; I thought I'd wait it out. To be sure, it hasn't been that long of a wait, but I have come to realize that there is nothing I can do or so to make myself quit. I'm resigned. I don't care anymore. Partly because I don't know, but more importantly, because it doesn't matter. Maybe I like him, maybe I don't. What is there to say? I no longer care.