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Sunday, February 20, 2005

survey!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111111

It is remarkably challenging to procrastinate when you're not allowed to go on AIM.

I think I had a dream where I signed on by accident because I hit a series of faulty keys, and then I panicked and nearly cried, thinking, "Shit, shit, shit! There goes 95 dollars!"

Then again, I'm not much for recalling dreams.

I'm sure I could find better ways to use my time-- pero, I am tired of laundry, homework does not appeal to me, and...well, I'd like to go play badminton, but there is no OG until tomorrow morning, when I will probably be busy taking the rare chance to reunite with Wisdom people.

At any rate, it occurred to me that filling out one of those damn online surveys has the potential to be fun! If not, at least I'll be doing something that isn't progressive. Anyhow, I decided to go find one and fill it out. ::deep breath:: here goes! Prepare yourself.

* name: Caroline
* nickname(s): Kero
* b-day: the sixth day of the twelfth month in the year nineteen eighty eight.
* eye color: i'm thinking red.
* hair color: pink?
* artistic: i possess capabilities you never knew existed.
* first crush: i can tell you my last one.
* last crush: if you mean crush by my definition of crush, that would be daniel. something more? ryan. ooh, ouch.
* boyfriend-girlfriend now: FUCK YOU!! ^____^
* color of your room: greeen, almost white
* what are u wearing now: my skin, and a wall or two.
* u shy or outgoing: ::shrugs::
* looks or personality: PERSONALITY, YOU SHALLOW LITTLE WAD OF SCUM.
* tan or fair: kiss.my.effing.asssssss.
* like to flirt: do i seem bitter? damn. i wasn't bitter when i first started writing this entry.
* would you ever date a friend: i should hope so.
* are you punk or prep: i'm asian!
* smart or dumb: take a look at where I stand, and you tell me.
* funny or serious: i suddenly don't want to fill this out anymore. but if I stop now all the following answers will be barbara's, which will not make sense if there is stuff about regan. if i pause and finish later, i will be in a different mood. ::plunges on::

m o r e :
*cuddle or make out: define "making out." i always thought it was...extensive, with slobber going all over the place. other people say it's simply kissing. a kiss is a sweet, but there is something rather repulsive about witnessing two people going at it.
*chocolate milk, or hot chocolate: hot chocolat.
*winter, summer, fall, or spring: winter..
*vanilla or chocolate: vanilla
*cereal or toast: what's on the toast
*bunk or water bed: i don't think i've been on a water bed. ever. at least not within my memory. i vaguely remember something black, but that was either a dream or a movie. i'm going to stop here and finish this later, because people are yelling.

f a v e s :
* ocean or pool: pool
* love or lust: love so much you lust
* laugh or cry: laugh until you cry
* silver or gold: silver
* diamonds or pearls: ...are a girl's best friend.
* sunset or sunrise: sun rise. bring me that horizon.
* showers or baths: showers are more convenient
* drink: butterbeer
* fruit: pineapple!!11111
* veggie: potatoes > all.
* juice: freeze the capri sun.

l a s t t i m e y o u ...
* showered: yesterday
* went runnin: yesterday, sort of? maybe that doesn't count. friday, ish..
* worked out: conditioning for bd?
* danced like a frickin idiot: hahahah winter ball 2004 whoo
* went to a movie: hm..last friday, on the 11th, i think. saw hitch for rachel.
* talked on the phone: an hour and a half earlier from now
* were depressed: nonsense.

r a n d o m :
* whats ur middle name:
* is ur hair color natural: yeah
* do u have a cell phone: yes
* whats ur online screen name: glassJheregWings
* last time u went bowling: ooh. don't remember. i think it was about two summers ago, with kyle, kim, joseph...and there was someone else. and then we went to joseph's house to see a bootleg of finding nemo. haha...someone fell...jeez, that was so long ago..
* are u any good at bowling: hahaha.
* last time u went to the doctor: umm..september, i think? for my physical.
* do u have a credit card: you betcha. the trick is to keep it in your head...
* do u consider urself a "nice" person: ha.
* do u like mustard: er..it's okay..

LAST PERSON WHO..
+ Slept in your bed: my sis
+ Saw you cry: i don't remember the last time I cried in front of someone. maybe it was that day i went to abu's house for our history project. except i didn't actually cry in front of him, i was just very obviously upset because i had been crying in the car and my eyes were still red. and yeah. thanks dad. you always know just how to get me started.
+ Made you cry: my dad? probably. do movies count? i got pretty choked up during hotel rwanda. hitch was good. i almost cried last night, but i don't think it counts because i just got really really frustrated. i was in the bathroom and i looked at the mirror and i don't remember what i was thinking, but i kept wondering, wtf am i doing, anyway?
+ You shared a drink with: does water count? erm..i think adri or kim..after pe.
+ You went to the movies with: rachel nandita danita elizabeth nilesh arish.
+ You went to the mall with: whooa. don't remember. maybe a member of my family. or else it was james and manry.
+ Yelled at you: i think it was me.
+ Sent you an e-mail: nisha
+ Said "I love you" and meant it: who knows.
+ Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: september 2004. hahaha. crazy shit. so it wasn't exactly like my dream, but then, i didn't expect to be. i was pretty much shocked at how close it already was.
+ Got a really bad feeling about something then it happened: wow i just realized the last question doesn't fit, unless it's asking who was the last person that dreamt something crazy, but then, how would i know..and then this..do they mean who was the last person who got a sense of foreboding about something that ended up happening, or do they mean when was that last time i got that sense? i don't know the answer to the former...and now that i think about it, i don't know the answer to the latter, either.

+ Santa or Rudolph: jolly old saint nicholas, lean your ear this way...
+ Math or English: english. well..geometry. both of them own science.
+ What are you going to do after you finish this survey: I'll think of something.
+ What was the last food you ate: eggrolls + pho, sort of? except without the stew.
+ High school or college: aiyyy.
+ How many buddies are on: NO AIM.
+ Do you have a crush on someone: I would not call it a crush. But then, he's the only person I've considered for the past seven months.
+ Do they know: he should. I told him once and mentioned it twice more. But, by all logic, if I were in his place, I would think that I were over it...
+ What do you think of ouija boards: don't play.
+ What's on your mouse pad: well, it's not my computer, or my mousepad, but it says WWJD.
+ Worst feeling in the world: choose one?
+ What is the first thing you think when you wake in the mornining: gnneragh.
+ How many rings before you answer the phone: 1-3
+ Future daughter's name: scarlet, lavendar, possibly blue.
+ Future son's name: blue, maybe? but then if blue is a girl, then she'll either be Skye Blue or Blue Skye. ^____^
+ Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: no room. however, i do sleep with my green moshi pillow.
+ Glasses or Contacts: glasses! =D
+ Are You Timely Or Always Late: heh..
+ Do You Have A Job: nope. =X
+ Do You Like Being Around People: yeah, i do.

STUFF
+ Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: you bet.
+ Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: well, most of them were asian..
+ Want someone you dont have right now: unfortunately. doesn't that just kill?
+ Ever liked a close girl friend: oh hell yeah ;]
+ Are you lonely right now: like a brick.
+ Ever afraid you'll never get married: would that be such a bad thing?
+ Do You Want To Get Married: I don't know.
+ Do You Want Kids: only if I get to name them Blue, Lavender, and Scarlett. =)

FAVORITE
+ Room In house: i like my house.
+ Day Of The Week: every day that I get to see you.
+ Flower: red rose. i know, typical, but..
+ Month: decemberrrr
+ Season: winter.

IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU:
+ Cried: almost, but didn't. i thought I was going to, actually, which surprised me because I hadn't realized how frustrated I was over something so trivial. But then it didn't happen, which surprised me again because I thought I was about to.
+ Bought Something: gasoline..
+ Gotten Sick: no. i've been sick, though. i still am, actually. i want chocolate.
+ Sang:
+ Said I Love You: i said "love you," i think..to my wife.
+ Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved them, But Didn't: chh.
+ Met Someone New: i called people that i don't know very well.
+ Moved On: i fucking tried, dammit.
+ Talked To Someone: yeah. my psychiatrist tells me to stay away from you..
+ Had A Serious Talk: not very.
+ Missed Someone: no..
+ Hugged Someone: hmm. no..
+ Kissed Someone: i got kissed by my baby cuz joshua ^__^ i was a little wary of also getting smacked in the face, but luckily he didn't do that...
+ Fought With Your Parents: a little..
+ Dreamed About Someone You Can't Be With: i don't remember my dreams.
+ Had a lot of sleep: yum.
+ Wanted This Survey To Be Over: i'm not filling it out the way i had been intending to. oh well.

-- Innie or Outtie:
-- The shoes you wore today: the old pumas. hahaha. i love those shoes, and all the writing and the dirt and the hole.
-- Your hair: is Asian.
-- Your weakness:
-- Your fears: I guess...I...I don't know..
-- Your perfect pizza: pineapple!
-- One thing you'd like to achieve: bye.