I overslept today.
I missed my MMW section at 8 AM, which we're not allowed to miss, and then I missed lecture (second time this week), and then I woke up 15 minutes after my shift had started, and I was approximately 30 minutes late to work.
Missing lecture is okay. Doesn't happen, but I could deal with that. Missing section was pretty bad. Missing work? Well, shit.
I was thinking that I probably need to reevaluate my life right now, because if I've gotten to the point where my body is shutting down long enough for me to be late to work... that's completely unacceptable in my book.
So I guess when I think about it, I've been running kind of ragged. I feel like lately more than ever I've been hearing the words "You're crazy" addressed to me. I always brush it off. They don't know what they're saying. I can handle it. Apparently I'm wrong.
I should start blogging more often again. It helps me think and clear my head. Instead, I've just been pushing everything aside, to think about later.
The worst habit of mine is that I sleep late. Late late late. Even with class 8 AM thrice a week, I don't sleep until 2 AM, schedule permitting. I don't think 2 AM is bad at all. That's because I compare it to nights when I pulled all-nighters or slept at 5, 6, 7 AM. But I'm not being fair to myself. I forget that I actually have to wake up at 7. I keep pushing. Just one more day, one more day, and then you can rest. But it's not true, because it's actually four more days when it's the beginning of the week. Whoever said to take it day by day? To be honest, I have no fricking clue when I slept this week. All I know is that it's 8th week, and I missed my first two MMW lectures in the same week.
I feel like oversleeping is underrated because everyone does it. But to me, it is a Big Deal.
Do I need to change anything? Week 9, Week 10, Finals and it's over. Next quarter I won't have to deal with PSA labs every week, I won't have class at 8 AM... I won't be investing 10+ hours a week to java. Probably. I will still have 12 hours of work a week with classes, badminton, the USP club, and Habitat.
Anyway, there's this question that I've been continually postponing, but I think it's time to ask: Am I trying to kill myself?
Missing lecture is okay. Doesn't happen, but I could deal with that. Missing section was pretty bad. Missing work? Well, shit.
I was thinking that I probably need to reevaluate my life right now, because if I've gotten to the point where my body is shutting down long enough for me to be late to work... that's completely unacceptable in my book.
So I guess when I think about it, I've been running kind of ragged. I feel like lately more than ever I've been hearing the words "You're crazy" addressed to me. I always brush it off. They don't know what they're saying. I can handle it. Apparently I'm wrong.
I should start blogging more often again. It helps me think and clear my head. Instead, I've just been pushing everything aside, to think about later.
The worst habit of mine is that I sleep late. Late late late. Even with class 8 AM thrice a week, I don't sleep until 2 AM, schedule permitting. I don't think 2 AM is bad at all. That's because I compare it to nights when I pulled all-nighters or slept at 5, 6, 7 AM. But I'm not being fair to myself. I forget that I actually have to wake up at 7. I keep pushing. Just one more day, one more day, and then you can rest. But it's not true, because it's actually four more days when it's the beginning of the week. Whoever said to take it day by day? To be honest, I have no fricking clue when I slept this week. All I know is that it's 8th week, and I missed my first two MMW lectures in the same week.
I feel like oversleeping is underrated because everyone does it. But to me, it is a Big Deal.
Do I need to change anything? Week 9, Week 10, Finals and it's over. Next quarter I won't have to deal with PSA labs every week, I won't have class at 8 AM... I won't be investing 10+ hours a week to java. Probably. I will still have 12 hours of work a week with classes, badminton, the USP club, and Habitat.
Anyway, there's this question that I've been continually postponing, but I think it's time to ask: Am I trying to kill myself?
coming from a caroliine @ 03:45
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