good going, kerry

See, even though I know, for a fact, that it means nothing, I always let it get to me, and I always let it mean something. I mean, he wouldn't have been protective if he didn't care, right? Except he doesn't care the way I pretend he does. He's just who he is.

I say "whatever" again, but it is a slightly more cheerful, less blatantly depressing form of the word. Despite the fact that circumstances have not changed, I still feel better.

There's a time limit, though. At the end of Liveright I will probably find myself unwillingly upset again.

Hey, please donate! We're so far from our goal. =[ It goes to help victims of liver cancer and hepatits B.

So, things that have made me brighter.
1. He pulled my jacket over me. It was weird. I was already wearing it.
2. He didn't complain, and beyond being just tolerant, he was responsive.
3. He told me I pulled it off well.
4. It's raining.
5. It's raining!
6. It's raining! ^___________^

Things that have made or will make me not so bright.
1. AP Practice exam tomorrow morning.
2. My calculus and its current path downhill.
3. Government pop quizzes are killing me. So much for pulling my grade up. I'm being destroyed.
4. Subject tests this Saturday.
5. Stats. I don't know what I'm doing in there.
6. My wisdom teeth.
7. Lack of funding for my life.
8. College applications.

Bum bum bum. Words to stop a bleeding heart. Whose heart? My heart. Psh, my heart does not bleed. But your words could stop it, if it did.

Bum bum bum. Last night I got into an argument with Minivan. I gave him my opinion and told him to do what he wants and he got mad and technically stormed off. Today he was calmer and I don't know if what we talked about will make a difference in the end.

When I close my eyes, I see tetris pieces falling into place.
I hate to admit it, but I think I have a problem.