i feel a fool about to show

"The requested URL was not found on this server."

well...RAWR. >|
yeah, cut off.
whatever. ARGH.
damn you, damn you.


and then..i got this idea.
of just..putting my page however i want it.
because it's my page, right?
but
argh
shoot, who am i fooling
where am i going with this, anyway?

if you were waiting for the opportune moment,
that was it.

maybe i lost the chance?
maybe last summer, that was supposed to be my opportunity
and i just gave it up, waiting
thinking, if there's anything you have to say, then say it.
but what if you weren't supposed to say it
what if i was supposed to say it
and i didn't say it
i didn't say anything
you gave me a chance and i just wasted it
i spent it on stupid questions
but then, you should have known better than to think i was ready for that.
or well, i guess you didn't.
sigh.
my fault, my fault.
i always thought i knew what i wanted
but there we were, and i fucked up.
or well, i guess i did. i hadn't thought of it at the time.
but it's like.
now it's gone.
eurgh.

i like summer 2004. that was a sweet sweet summer. too bad there'll never be anything like that again.

summer 2005. was a little less exciting.

but i guess. it could have been better, if i had opened my eyes earlier.

yargh.

whatever. WHATEVER. what.evarrrr.

i'm not done, not really.

i just--yeah.
i don't know.
help.