i want to wish you a merry christmas

I don't feel the Christmas spirit this year. I remember last year, when I was actually looking forward to the Friday before break--all my presents ready to disperse. This year, I forgot Christmas even existed. I mean, I did my Christmas shopping, but it went extremely slowly and I'm still not done.

I guess a part of me that's changed is that I don't prepare for things as much anymore, and when I don't know what to do, I say that it's okay, "we'll figure something out." I tell myself that I'll manage, because in the past, I've been able to. Not exactly the best way to go, but...I just get so tired. Not that that's an excuse.

Anyway. I hope you have a happy life.